Good morning my friend. Im glad that our appreciation for music was able to sort of put us in the same place today. I really am glad to have a moment to share with you and share some of your burdens. I hope we can lighten the load a little bit.
You mentioned hopeless isolated despair - i wont pretend to know what’s going on. But do you want to talk about it a little bit? Do you want to get anything more off your chest?
I imagine that when you’re feeling that low and as you say, “waiting for the end”, I imagine life just feels like going through the motions. I could imagine a world of no highs. Just lows. Just caught in the cycle. Hurting.
I am so sorry my friend. Truly. I have had emotions that I feel are very similar before. Ive felt at the end of my rope. Trapped in a cycle. Looking ahead and saying “what’s the point, I can’t change anything”
Maybe you’ve felt similarly before?
I want to say that, in my life, I was wrong. I was hurting so much that I couldn’t see the path forward. And when I did see it, I didnt really want to walk it. How could I when I had such little energy? When I was so beaten down…
But I eventually did get help. I went to therapy, several times honestly. And while some of the therapists didnt click with me, i found one who did.
And it was a lot of work. Work that, had my circumstances in life been different, I wouldnt have had to do. But that isnt for me to decide I suppose. Years and years later, Im not cured. But the hardest days are just that. Hard days.
I sincerely hope that you’re safe. That you’re ok. I know it may be cliche but you deserve love. And you deserve happiness and kindness. You deserve to keep going and to enjoy the time you have. Whatever that means for you. I’d like to encourage you to seek help - though I know help is a privilege.
Dont hesitate for a second to reach out. To post here. We want to support you and comfort you.
Because you’re worth it, friend.
Hold fast, ok?