I struggle with suicidal thoughts but also lately

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I struggle with suicidal thoughts, but also lately the pain made me want revenge on those that wronged me. Especially since one of my former coworkers got me falsely terminated and he knew I was in therapy for anxiety. Not depression, but I disclosed to my management that I had a knife against my wrist just to be rudely treated. The supervisor literally got all angry and stood up, headed out of the office saying loudly “I’m leaving, she already has accusations against me.” It hurt and felt like they didn’t care that what I was accused of that they were terminating me for, I’m actually in therapy for. I been trying to find an attorney for it with no luck.

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Hello friend,

I’m so sorry you’re going through this.

The supervisor shouldn’t have gotten angry at all, and as someone’s who worked in management roles in the past, there’s absolutely no place for something like that, since it should always be conducted in a professional setting.

With that being said, I know you mentioned you were in therapy, are you still in therapy? Because this is something I would 100% bring up with your therapist, and in terms of employment attorneys, I would see if there are any type of legal aid or assistance programs in your area, because they can definitely help you get connected. But before then, I would bring that up to your therapist and see if that’s something that should even be explored. Going through a situation like this is extremely rough and no matter what, protecting yourself and your mental health should be key.

If you ever need to talk, or to vent or anything too, we do have a support forum at heartsupport.com where you can also post anonymously and get replies from our HeartSupport family as well <3

You’ve got this!

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Hi Friend,

I’m sorry to hear that this happened to you. I have had a bad experience with an employer before and I remember how I felt about it all at the time so I can understand how frustrating and upsetting, and also hurtful this all would have been for you to go through. I completely get that desire for revenge that starts to burn inside when we get angry about how we have been wronged, and how unfair it is that we are hurting/suffering consequences while the people that wronged us seem perfectly okay.

In my situation I had to work with a therapist to find a way to let everything go, but boy did I rant my head off for a while about it - which to me felt like a bit of a release at least. I hope for the best in your attempt to seek some sort of solace and resolution about what happened. I hope that one day, you too can reach a peaceful place about it all and that you will be better off and happier in other places of employment - places that value their workers. Throughout your search, remember to try and take care of yourself as well and to lean on your therapist for support if you need it :white_heart:

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I’m so sorry you’re in this situation. Anger from feeling unfairly treated by others can be really hard to process and come to terms with. Have you spoken to your therapist about this situation? They would probably be able to offer you better advice with their insight into what has happened.

Ultimately, I think whatever happens with your former supervisor, that isn’t going to resolve how you feel. Resolving anger is about accepting what has happened, accepting that it was wrong, but that there is a life beyond it. That is much easier said than done, I know that. With time though, this incident doesn’t have to weigh so heavily on your shoulders as it does now. As this song explains, that anger, all that energy, can be re-directed to make something better. x

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Thank you for trusting us with your struggles and story. Losing a job is such a challenging, upsetting experience and I can understand how this could cause many feelings to grow, from sadness to anger. It’s also disheartening to hear that your supervisor treated you poorly when you revealed details from your life – I really wish they had been supportive because you deserve respect and care.

I hope, in the future, you find a more supportive workplace because you deserve to be around people who care about you.

Please don’t hesitate to reach out to share more as you navigate this difficult situation (you can reach out on YouTube or forum.heartsupport.com). We’re here for you and are wishing you all the best. Thank you, once more, for sharing.

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