I know, I know this isn’t exactly the best place to ask about this, but I genuinely can’t tell if I’m overreacting, or if something is actually happening. So I thought it would be better to talk about it here. Plus, it’s taking a toll on my mental health.
So, some background information. Back in february, I went to GSA. It was a fairly big meeting, as we were in the library checking out books with queer representation in them. I read one, it was pretty good. While we were there, there was someone who I hadn’t seen before. I think I sort of mistook curiosity for attraction, because for a while I thought I liked him, but I really didn’t. Let’s call this person H. H was pretty cool, but I was too scared to talk to him in person. So I did what anyone does in that situation and I messaged him.
He was nice at first, but then he started asking me weirdly personal questions. Questions about my trauma, my mental health, I mean he even asked me once if I self-harmed because I liked blood. It was just… very uncomfortable after a while. On top of that, he wouldn’t leave me alone in school. He came up to me at every possible instance. One time, I think he tried to replicate my tics? It was really mocking and I felt bad about it because I’m very insecure about my tics. They get in the way of every day life and he sort of just… mocked them.
So I ended up cutting him off. I blocked him, which… didn’t work because he then proceeded to email me, which I blocked him there too. At first I tried to avoid him, but he really couldn’t take a hint. I walked halfway around the school to avoid him and he looked for me. He asked if he could sit with me and my friends at lunch and I told him no. He said okay, but then he stood outside the doorway for a while. The doorway closest to the table I sat at. Now, he wasn’t like… watching me or anything, but he did periodically glance at me which was just uncomfortable.
I was done with it at that point, so I messaged him one last time, telling him that if he came up to me at school, or messaged me again, I would report him for harassment. I thought that did well enough, so I left it at that. I didn’t see him at all for a while and I was very relieved about it. Until two days ago when I saw him walking out of the school. GSA is on mondays, and he goes to GSA meetings, so he was walking out of a different door I was. And then he just… stared at me. The whole time he was walking out, he was watching me. I was honestly very scared.
It’s made me very paranoid. I told him what bus I went on because he asked, and if he truly wanted to, he could figure out where I live because of that. I’ve heard he keeps asking my friends about me. I don’t know what he’s asking I just know he’s asking about me. I wan’t him to stop. I don’t feel safe anymore. I can’t walk to my classes alone anymore, I can’t go to GSA anymore. I don’t want to be anywhere around him, but I don’t know what to do. The school isn’t going to do anything about someone just watching me, he’d have to actually do something for someone to care about it. I just… I’m scared, and I don’t know what to do.