I overthink, constantly and all of the time, to the point where the thinking is what occupies my time when, really, I could be actually doing something about what I’m thinking about. Hell it’s almost 4am over here, and I’m just thinking. I wish I could stop.
I have way too much work to do in such a short period of time, and I missed a deadline for something I could probably fix if I just emailed somebody. Yet almost 2 weeks later I haven’t, because my brain will overload itself with “But what if you can’t fix it? This was your fault for being irresponsible. Moreover what if they think you’re stupid for this?” But! I know that they’re just thoughts! It’ll probably be fine!! But I still don’t do anything!!! It drives me mad!!! I’ve very evidently gotten so much work done when I just stop thinking, but it’s so hard to… There’s so much to do and I’m not sure I can do it all because I’m quite literally frozen by the fear in me. It’s frustrating.