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I want to thank you Taylor a drive around listening while I do my job to you and isometimes I the things ou say bring up a lot in my past which is constantly just berating me and telling me that’s who I am like you are talking about this and I hate it and I’m a recovering drug addict and I still have my struggles and stuff but I’m disgusted with the past I’m disgusted with the things I’ve done and I kind of hate who I am but I put on a smile and say I’m good stuff but it always bubbles up and I know it’s not who I am but sometimes I feel like I can’t wash it off you know I feel dirty on the inside I don’t know but listening to you it’s like bringing you know 50 years old now and I’m I’m thinking about things that happen when I was 20 something and it’s stuff I don’t want to get you on the internet but I don’t know I went to a doctor one time and I was trying to get off of pain pills and he put me on Suboxone and then he told me I had something called schizoaffective disorder which I don’t even know what that is and basically overall addiction problems and seasonal affect disorderbut I don’t you know I understand what you’re saying here I’m accountable for who I am now and what I do but you know I’m also managed depressive so I will start my days off sometimes so happy like really manic energetic and then I get all the sudden I don’t know where all things s***does happiness isn’t real because as soon as it’s going to be way way way way way low way down and this is when all the thoughts come back and the tears flow I hate it