I wish I didn’t exist. To others my life could look even better than average, but I feel really bad and since I know others are in much worse situation than I am and are doing just fine, I feel like I don’t have the right to feel bad. That makes me feel even worse.
I have a good family that I love and who loves me back. My health is good, my studies are going well, my financial situation is great and I have a boyfriend who loves me more than I deserve. I do have happy moments in life, and I am confident that in the future I will be happier. So from what I’ve understood my situation is quite different from most people who consider suicide. I know I am loved and I don’t feel like I am a burden to anyone, other than myself.
If anyone is or have been in a similar situation, please let me know.