I’m getting really worried about my partner. They’re self-harming all the time and acting like it’s funny and I can’t help them or make them stop. I know they’re only trying to make it a joke to cope, and they don’t actually think self-harm is funny, but no matter how much I tell them that it’s unhealthy, and give them other ways of dealing with it, they won’t stop.
And worst of all, they keep talking to ME about it. Self-harm is a trigger for me, and talking about it makes me relapse. I already have a bunch of cuts on my upper arm, I don’t need more but I’m so stressed and worried about them that my only way of letting it out is to hurt myself. Not to mention that I have my own problems going on. I’m trying to handle flashbacks and trauma-related panic attacks ON MY OWN without telling anyone or asking for help. Adding one more thing on top isn’t helping at all.
I already feel terrible and I can’t handle not being able to help the one person keeping me sane.