I’m having troubles with my gender because i am AMAB but i crossdress and like bring feminine. I also don’t feel all that comfortable as a guy but I’m sure that I’m not a girl. Does that make me GNC, nonbinary, something else? I don’t know but I’m not going to get into it because of the current political climate and my dad. I feel like i talk about him a lot on here but he is the main reason for most of my posts. I’ve thought about changing my name before but that was because it was what my dad had picked out for me but now when i think of changing my name it’s more of making myself more comfortable with me being me. I don’t like my name or my body and wish i could’ve been born someone else. Someone more me-like. It feels weird writing that out but i feel like it makes sense, right? Basically what I’m saying is that i don’t feel like me. Somehow. Anyways hope yall have a good day or night depending on where you are.
Hey my friend. Thank you so so so much for posting here about what you’re going through. Given the state of the world, I can absolutely understand how stressful something like self exploration and discovery can be and how much pressure surrounds that.
And I am sorry that the world the way it is. I believe that, were things different, the questions surrounding this stuff wouldnt feel so hard.
I missed out a bit - but what is your relationship with your name and your father, if you dont mind me asking (Absolutely decline if it’s uncomfortable)
Here is a bit of a ramble - I'm having troubles with my gender and I'm scared to really go into it - HeartSupport / Support | Loom
I don’t really like my name because it just feels like a tie to my dad, mostly because it’s my grandpas name letter for letter and it’s a more masc name as well. I have decided on a name yet but I’m thinking more along the lines of a nane that could be either masc or fem. I don’t like my dad for a multitude of reasons but I’ll try to list em. He beat me, is openly transphobic and has told me to not be trans because they are mentally ill with absolutely no prompting, made some content that used very clear homophobic sterotypes, has said the hard r which his whole side of the family does as well, and has threatened to hit me. Also sorry for taking a bit to respond lol. I don’t really check this often. i haven’t listened to the video yet but i skimmed through the transcript and thanks for your support. Much love <3
No need for apologies friend. None at all.
I understand now. That makes sense and I dont blame you for a second. It seems like changing your name is a way to try to distance yourself from them and the habits that they keep. A way to sort of…liberate yourself perhaps?
Are you in a position to safely do change your name? Or would that cause issues? My fear is that something happens to you if you live with them or something of that nature and that is the last thing that I would want.
If you are more separate from them, then i support your decision entirely. I have had minimal familial contact for a long time, for differing reasons than yours. But…it’s helped me to grow I’d like to think.
I hope you are safe, friend.