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Im mourning my own life as we speak but not addicted just fucked in the head i gues.
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It must feel so draining to feel like there’s something inherently wrong with your mind, and I’ve been there many times before. When I screw up or make decisions I know I shouldn’t, guilt and remorse flood over me and I feel ready to give up on it all since it seems like my mind is just naturally messed up.
I want to let you know that you are not at all alone in feeling like there’s something wrong with you, and you are also not wrong for feeling that way. Like I said, I’ve been there and so have so many other people who are there for you in this season and are walking through this darkness with you. But it’s so much easier to talk about getting better than actually getting to the other side, right? It might seem like these words are empty, and depending on how you’re feeling right now, peace can feel SO far away.
Whenever I’ve felt like a malfunction, like my thoughts and actions are simply wired wrong, the only thing that has helped me is clinging to the hope that is real and present in my life just as it is in yours. In those moments when life exhausts me to the lowest level and all I want to do is mourn the destruction of myself, those moments teach endurance and hope greater than all reason. When it seems illogical and impossible, hope is more powerful than ever. When peace and the joy of tomorrow feel most distant, I want you to know that your refusal to give up will someday lead to that future you seek. I don’t know when, and it might not be as soon as you think, because that certainly was not how it was for me. I struggled for far longer than I ever thought I could endure, and still now I fight those feelings of anxiety and the guilt of living a screwed life. But if you cling to the idea that hope is still available in this moment, even if it looks like shouting desperate prayers or angry words at the state of your life, then your purpose will start to shine its light, small at first, into the darkness of this storm.
I believe that if you cling to hope, the purpose for your existence will reveal itself to you in those tiny sparks of light that flicker in your head. The darkness of your mind can never completely shroud the light, even if right now they are just small stars in a black galaxy. Day will come, and the sun will rise over this pain and suffering you’re enduring. Your life has so much more in store for you, and I am so proud of your strength and endurance so far. I am here for you, I am sending all my love to you, and I am fighting the blackness right beside you today.
You are loved and never alone. You made it to a place where it is safe and your story will be listened too. The pain today is power for tomorrow. I can not stop saying those words. They from a band called POD. The pain today is power for tomorrow. Speak out and tell your story.
Our heads can get the best of us and make us question our lives and our worth. I and others experience doubt and dismay and darkness too and it swallows us whole and takes us away from things we love to do and the people who love us. You are here and in a place where people care, people can listen, and with whom you can find comfort and understanding. You are not alone.