I love someone so much. He broke up with me a few days ago saying he couldn’t trust me.
Our love began well. It was just an online relationship but we fell in love quick. It was going good but then, I broke up with him because I was worried that it would burden him and I was mad he didn’t understand how I felt when I told him that I see there’s a problem in this relationship that I wanted to work on by giving a week break. He yelled at me and it triggered me to tell him that we are completely over.
After that, I changed my mind quickly because I didn’t want it to happen. I said it rashly and I didn’t mean any of it. I told him the next day that, “I want to try this relationship again. I love you, please give me another chance.” He said he had a hard time trusting me after I broke his heart after breaking up and I told him that I will not make that mistake again. We talked for a bit and decided to take it slow again so that he can take his time to earn his trust for me. He got backed with me and I made rules for myself that I had to follow or else, it would have definitely ruined the relationship.
He started to trust me for a bit. Things were going well for a while but his paranoia started affecting his mind. He kept thinking I would break up with him and I reassured him I wouldn’t. He asked me to not let him go and I told him, “I won’t. I will take this until the end my silly love.”
Recently, he broke it up saying he couldn’t deal with this anymore. He said he loves me but he can’t trust that I wouldn’t leave him.
So then, now I’m trying to get back with him. I really love him. I told him that I would work hard to meet him in person and show him that by spending all this money and time on him will I prove to him that I love him and I will not leave him… but he blocked me. He told not to be obsessed and that I should move on.
I want to respect his wishes but all of this hurts so much that I don’t want it to end it the way it is. I want to prove to him that I meant everything I said. I want to keep my words when he asked me not to let him go during our 2nd relationship.
I want to show him that I love him so much that I will commit to him by meeting him in real life and earning his trust in person.
I’m posting all of this because I want to know what people thinks. Is this the right thing to do? Should I keep going to show that I love him or should I respect his wishes by moving on? Should I spend a year working hard to see him in person or should I accept this right now?
I love him so much and I want to give him my whole life. We did everything together and he means everything to me. He always talked about how people leave him and that I will also leave him when we were in the relationship but he also told me about how much he loves me and that he will keep me safe.
I want to prove him wrong. I want to keep my promise and show him that I am actually genuine about this. I want to show that I will not leave him; I won’t ever let him go again.
So what do you guys think?