Hello everyone .i accidentally found this forum and read some people problems . I think it’s noble what you’re doing here.
My name is lilo. English is not my mother tongue . I’m 29 years old . I have everything in life … But i feel worthless .
I was a normal adult with unlimited dreams, full of energy, wanting to change the world for the best . I always loved traveling and trying different activities in different societies with thier amazing cultures . I enjoyed every bit of my life . Until i met this girl from London . We had a distant relationship because i live in algeria and we are far from each other. We usually meet when ever we have time . We did everything we could both of us and i loved her more than myself. After 4 years of us being together we planned to get married and settle together. But than problems started and we eventually separated. That’s when i couldn’t accept the reality and i couldn’t convince myself with what happened . I feel lost in this world without her even though i know she don’t care about me anymore and i feel the same. But my life has changed a lot i had a million and one plans . And it’s all gone in just one single night. I used to watch movies where they try to show how love effect people lives but i can confidently say that they are not expressing even 1 percent of the actual damage such feelings can do.
I feel worthless. I don’t want to do anything. No Matter how much i tried to change to be different i alwyes go back to the starting point. And ask myself if i plan it will disappear again. I try to do something and i hardly finish it. This is if i finish it. I’m lost in my own life. I started talking a lot to my brain lately . I always ask myself why I’m feeling this way . I’m a smart person i can do plenty of useful things. Why i’m trapped. I couldn’t find any answer. I just hate my self and feel worthless.