I have been single for my years and it start to get to me again. Me and my guys are been having issue of finding a girl or girls as friends. I know that you dont need anyone to be happy, but sucks when im 28 years olds, where im not marry, in relationship or even having a group of friends. My work there only older women and there other place for me to meet girls. I do play in a band, but feel girls in my music scene dont like or think of me as poser.
I was at Have Heart show, there bunch girls there, where I felt every one of them thought me as wiredo or creep. I did not say anything much anyone during that day, but my anxiety get best of me. I feel that girls just hate me and dont even consider me human. For listen to exact same music, not wearing the newest clouths, I dont say the rigth things and Im not good looking.
My family I look not good with my shave head, which feed into my anxiety more. My father keep tellling me that I dont need someone, but hard to fight those feelings. My band kinda pouch fun, they think Im too wired or loud for girls. That not mature enough for a relationship and that to hyper active.However, I dont feel I need to change for I am and I feel I dont belong any where.
It starts mess with my mind, I feel that girl just after me just used me, lie to me and treat me like Im subhuman. I know this not true, but I cant fight these feelings. It suck that into doughy guy that cant talk to girl or have them as friends. I never wanted to be this guy.