Thank you so much for sharing this here. It’s good to hear that our content resonates with you and that it brings a little bit of light/encouragement in the midst of rough times.
It makes sense that your mind would feel scattered while trying to re-build your life after prison. When you’re trying to put the pieces back together, it feels like you’re being pulled in all these directions at once, making it hard to find some time to catch your breath. I can only imagine how confusing it must feel to have this sensation of having to start from a blank page again, while also carrying the memories of your own story. So many commitments, responsibilities to think about at once… if you’re alone handling all of this, it must feel so very isolating too. You’re probably feeling pressure from every angle. Trying to get your footing, working out a path for yourself, dealing with how people around you might be seeing you now, and maybe even figuring out who you are in the middle of it all. Just to rebuild a sense of belonging above it all.
Maybe, little by little, you’ll find ways to bring that focus back, even if it’s just for a few minutes at a time. You are trying and doing the hard work, which is what matters most. There might be fails along the way, there might be moments of doubts and fear too. But you’re actively paving the way for yourself, for your life, for this new future of yours. You deserve a fresh start, and you’re already working toward it just by doing your best. It’s okay to feel confused for now, maybe even lost at times. You are objectively in a huge period of growth, and even if it feels chaotic you’re building something real for yourself, one step after another.