Hi so recently my mom and dad are really pissed at me and I can’t say I blame them. I’ll give you both the things I’ve done and the things they’ve done though so you guys can understand better.
When I was younger, around 12-13 I started playing online games. My mom got really mad at that but never told me why except “people are bad.” But I had made friends on that game and she just says that you can’t make friends over a game.
On and off I would go on it and talk to people I’ve never met in real life. I’ve never given addresses or like anything super private. I have given them numbers and email though… but never like SSN or anything. And she acts like it’s the worse offense ever. I want to believe that she’s mad about me lying to her (which I get) but instead of trying to talk to me she just yells and gets mad and favors my “perfect” sister instead. She’s told me I’ve been a pathological liar since I was 2 and that I’m ruining her marriage with my dad (they’re not divorced but they’re fighting more)
So I (and I admit this is awful which is what I need help with) I would go on my dad’s iPad or iPhone at night to talk to them… and I understand why that is bad. Which is where I need advice. I also would go on like, sites. Like (and I find it for some reason embarrassing to say, but fanfiction sites.) It’s not like I would read porn, but last night I… looked at one and oh my God I’m an awful person and it was after one of the good days with my mom.
Anyways, it’s been a few times I’ve done this now and I know it’s bad and this time I’m really going to try hard to stop but how can I help make them trust me again? I’m so lost and I feel like I have no one, I have friends at school but I don’t wanna tell them this stuff. And I’m lost and have like no will to live and it sounds kinda pathetic compared to what others go through but yeah. I just need so much help.