Hey everyone
( quick side note I’m sorry past topic I talk for a couple, stilling struggle a lot of my friend leaving and still hurt by her. I’m trying better not using sexist terms and harsh language. I only post, I don’t myself look like an asshole on social media. Please I hope you understand.)
Alright, I been feeling really fucking alone right now. I look instragm video where saw my ex friend. It hurt to see her so bad went into a dark spiral. I’m using my DBT skill calm myself down, and I kinda did, but heartbreak last at two month and not going away. What make all I’m close guys are going out difference paths. I no one to call a friend right now.
I’m been struggling being a 32 virgin living in my parents and with not enough to move out. Also no option for roommates. So I’m pretty trap and feel I have no say in my life. I never got really grow up I guess. I know not the only one, there a lot anger young men that going to dark , being blind by incel beliefs, and just going dark evil places. I feel becoming a huge problem.
I want to bring awareness, a lot these ideal made into more a shitty person. I have unfortunately more sexist , and more close mind. I’m not handling rejection and also I been struggle get over my ex friend.
I’m writing people need how we treat adults virgin both male / female. Virginity in both sexiest are both deal toxic masculinity and stereotypes in society. Also religious standards on sex in general. It feel some society what do with your body. Like you ether have stay a virgin by religion or you get call a whore if you sleep with more than one person. But point across is that I feel that fuck up pressure on men to sex. If don’t do this thing, they less of man or losers. Which can also make men view women as sex object just score points. Then this whole mess up incel come along brainwash alot men into hating women. Make do terrible awful crime such shooting.
My therapists have awesome trying get me out that dark fuck mindset. My family also help, even they tell that ex friend did not mean to hurt. I just scare, I rather say she hate me, because situations has so gray areas. But still anger, hatred and my shadow trying whipshers saying she never care about you. You all alone with no one.
I wish way get men out the whole incel ideology that infecting our society. I wish no person judge for being a virgin or not being virgin. Just everyone have every right what do with thier body. Also the have right sleep with as much people as they want. Again, myself including a lot these guy are blind hate and pain. To be honest, we are actually projecting. We have those same thoughts about dating everyone else. We get picky, we probably ghost someone and broken someone. But we get mad when girl do it to us. Cause we need better of being rejected. I need get be less anger my ex friend and dating seen. I know for fact, not all women are bad. Honestly they have hard in general, especially in dating scene. I understand would reject men, because their a lot asshole men lol.
I just get this into dark mind, I’m trying these thoughts every single day, it goddamn battle. But we this need a lot more. I think people less about adults virgins both male and female. Again I wanna stress, you a righthave to own body , choose give v card or to keep. Also have much sex you want, as you treat people with respect, respecting boundaries and not hurt anyone. I just we all equally human, keeping myself I need do better how I view people and hopefully we can all be closer.