I hate the way my mind works…I go from happy to sad and isolated so quickly sometimes. When I’m bored, I feel sadness. My mind runs a million miles an hour sometimes and the voices don’t help. Recently, I feel like my depression state of mind has gotten to a point where I reach a mentally isolated state of mind where I don’t want to talk or be around anyone, I conjure up situations in my head that piss me off and annoy me, and I just mentally shut down and can’t focus. It’s really just how my mind works I guess.
I truly don’t know how to explain what goes on in my head sometimes, and sometimes I feel like there must be some diagnosis for it. I am thinking about looking into counseling, but I don’t know just yet because a part of me feels like it would be an impulse decision to try and get answers.
Idk…has anyone gone through something similar?