Hey again friend, I appreciate your reply too. There’s a lot for me to touch on and I hope that I’ll be able to do so satisfactorily.
First of all, I’m very sorry that you lost your grandma. I lost my grandma, I called her Nan, just before covid hit. She would’ve preferred it that way, she was politically minded like yourself and I think she would’ve hated to see how things were handled in my country. I still think of her often. If you want to share anything about your grandma, I’d be happy to listen.
I can tell you certainly that you’re absolutely not alone in these feelings. I think that when people allow themselves the space to seriously engage with a lot of the things you’ve outlined, their reactions tend to be something like what you’ve shared with us today. It really smashes against a few nerves, particularly the sense of injustice that underlies the entirety of it. It’s like some kind of existential horror, that the people most affected by these situations are often the ones with the least power to stop them.
So it’s definitely not that you’re wrong about how awful these things are, there are crises all around, and I think you’ll find near unanimous agreement on that point. There are exceptions, America in particular is highly polarised, but in broad terms people want circumstances to improve for the most amount of people possible. It seems to me that there have to be other reasons why people on your side aren’t expressing anger in the same way that you are. I think this is important because it may help to demonstrate that things aren’t as helpless as they feel right now, because your supporters are greater in numbers than you think. It’s not necessarily that nobody else gets it, it’s more that we are all engaging and coping with these challenges in different ways.
One thing to consider is that while humanity at large has had a ginormous impact on the world, as individuals we’re basically still hairless monkeys who have evolved to work within quite tightly localised perspectives and spheres of influence. In some sense we’re not necessarily ‘built’ to engage with the world on a global scale, but you could say that we’re not really suited to office jobs or playing the piano either, so I might also add that the majority of people alive today haven’t grown up with ever-producing, globally pervasive and instantaneous information sharing networks. This means that as a collective, many of us are learning how to engage in impactful and healthy ways, and I think the way young people are engaging with politics is a very encouraging sign.
That said, I also feel terrible for these young people. One of the many crises we’re facing today is a growing strain on mental health, and the never-ending news cycle and uninterrupted access to it are direct contributors to that. I wish I could convey that there are ways of caring for others, caring about the world, while also protecting yourself. We need the ability to occasionally step away, to zoom our perspective back in and take care of affairs within our immediate vicinity, and to support ourselves too.
Just speaking from a utilitarian perspective, it would serve us well to consider the benefits and costs associated with different methods of engaging with political issues. Direct attempts to influence political actors who have the power to enact change can make a huge difference to their choices; things like emailing and calling local representatives strikes me as a helpful tactic for relatively little cost. It’s also great to talk about pressing affairs in the appropriate contexts, further increasing the amount of political pressure felt by decision-makers and encouraging more direct action. This can also benefit us personally, reminding us that we’re not alone in this and providing a healthy cathartic outlet for the stress we’ve accrued over time.
From my perspective, watching the goings-on in the world as closely as possible doesn’t seem to have a direct impact on the issues at hand, but can have a harsh impact on our mental health. Nor does letting stress accumulate, having it take over. I really hear you when you say that this feels important to do – you genuinely see the pain in the world and you feel it too, you truly wish that you had the power to solve this in an instant at any cost, and from your perspective it looks like if you’re not helping then nobody else will. But I also see what you’re saying between those things; that you feel like you care too much, that it all feels helpless, that you literally cannot look away, and that you’re suffering from suicidality. When I see these things, like you, I wish that I could help someone who deserves it.
I promise you that it doesn’t make you selfish or a bad person to address these things as priorities. It makes you and the people around you stronger, healthier, better able to engage positively with the world. One thing that I want you to think about with an open mind is the idea that it doesn’t help anyone when you are feeling worse. It doesn’t make the world a better place that you are suffering so much. The things that make you a good person have nothing to do with how much you are hurting – sometimes suffering just isn’t purposeful.
I also want to be clear that I’m not asking you not to care about the world, I’m just trying to say that there are ways of caring and doing good that aren’t as detrimental to your mental health. I see how intensely you feel this pressure, to do things that no single person could possibly do, and I wish to let you know that it is completely okay to start small and trust that the good you do will ripple out.
It sounds to me like you feel really very stuck in all of this. I just want you to know that I can relate to that very much, and because of that and the progress I’ve made, I believe that it can certainly be helped. I know with a certainty that there are ways of engaging with the tragedy of the world without resorting to mere distraction. I know you’ve said that it can’t be, but I know that it’s possible for someone to do a lot of good for the world while also finding some level of peace. The latter part is practically disconnected from the former, except to say that a person with poor mental health will be less able to function.
I know that I haven’t spoken very much about what can be done to tackle the political problems you’ve mentioned and that has been intentional. I want to talk about how you can be helped, that’s why we’re all here. I think taking steps to improve your well-being should be a high priority, not just because it would make you a better citizen of the world (it is impossible to pour from an empty cup!) but because you deserve to feel better too.
I know, of course, that being told that you matter can’t undo the deeply ingrained self-beliefs we hold. I’m undergoing a similar journey in that regard. I’d like to talk about what can be done to help you through this too. You mentioned a therapist earlier, are you talking to one about all of this and what these times have been like for you?
You’ve spoken briefly about negative experiences with medication and I just want to say that really sucks. I’m sorry you had such an awful time with it. I wouldn’t want to feel numbed or uncaring either, I can understand. That said, medication isn’t a monolith and it’s possible that some other kind at some other dosage could be really beneficial. I just want you to be open to that idea, again because I have been helped so much by my recent prescription. You could always taper back off and cease taking them, if you decided it wasn’t helpful.
You are so worthy of support, friend. You matter so much more than you know. I’ll be here to talk more if you’d like, I hope to hear back from you.