Tonight, I have try play guitar alittle bit. As I was playing I couldn’t play anything good. Was getting frustrated, all the negative thought coming about me abs everyone. My ego get me very anger when I can’t even play a simple song. Been playing music since high school, I still suck as a musician. I don’t even like calling myself a musician. Haven’t been disciplined in my guitar playing, just don’t have the passion to do, cuase no matter how hard I try, I just suck.
I don’t put to much press on myself, to prove all those fucking hater that they were wrong about me. That people might appreciate my music.
But I wish still to my punk rock side and not giving a fuck of what people think of me. But my insecurities get to me.