Hey there friend!
First off I just want to say thank you for being open with us here, we appreciate it and don’t take it for granted. I believe that sharing how we feel and what we have been through can help others feel less alone.
I totally get the struggle with anxiety as well. For a long period of time, I thought that anxious was all I was going to be. I thought that things would not get better in that aspect of my life, I thought that was just who I was. My parents took me to doctors because I was so quiet and shy, but they said I would grow out of it. It took a long time… it was kinda true. I think I went through things, I suffered through kind of, with people not understanding the anxious feelings I had. Today I can look back at those times I was so anxious, the times I cried or had a mental breakdown because of how anxious I was, and I can see how far I have come.
I have had a lot of bad days, a lot of hard days, but I have made it so far from where I was. I think that is something beneficial to remember in those moments where anxiety is overwhelming, to remember those previous times where anxiety was taking over, but you overcame it.
My mom had a kind of similar thing happen to her with anxiety, she didn’t notice it until much later in life.
You are not alone in this fight my friend. I as well as many others have been in those some kind of feelings as you, man they are so so hard. I remember in school all the times I would cry doing presentations, all the stress I would put myself under because I was always so anxious to say or do anything.
I remember when I didn’t have people in my life who understood how I was feeling, or what I was going through. It is so great no a days to have those people in my life who understand, even if I don’t know them too closely. I started with Heart Support when I was 16 about, and i think it really helped me to feel less alone in what I was feeling. My parents didn’t understand, but it was so nice to have a place where someone just understood where I was at.
Please know you are not alone in this fight friend, it is possible for things to get better, with time and effort. I know how it is, going through years with the torment of anxiety and all it brings. It is hard, but it get’s better I promise you that.
Keep going, take it slow. Try to stay in the moment, I find that helpful personally as to not let my mind wonder too far.
You are deserving of happiness, and you are deserving of not being anxious.
I am rooting for you! You got this!
With love,
Lys