Yesterday was a rough day. I woke up with an headache, after the day before I had a slight panic attack. Despite my headache I was able to keep calm during the day. I started with a new interest, and kept myself busy with it through the day.
I felt all day lonely, but it was ok. I didn’t felt abandond, or ignored, despite nobody contacted me. In the evening I had a short chat with a HeartSupporter which felt good, after she contacted me. After a while she didn’t answer any more, which also was fine, I knew she had other things doing parallel.
My headache went stronger so I took an Ibu again, and went to bed eventually. I woke up about an hour ago, (at 2am) and went through some discord messages. None to reply though.
I feel still lonely, but it is bearable. I made grilled turkey, after I hadn’t hardly eat anything the day before.
It is all silent outside. My cat was sleeping next to me, just to get into “I am starving, feed me” mode just after I got up. Fed her some treats, after it was apart of her feeding time.
Thought about having someone beside me, I could watch sleep. I feel like comunicating with someone, leaving a message. Just something “I think of you” … I don’t do it, it would be inappropiate.
Turned the TV on, to have some background noise. Seinfeld again. Switchted Channel. Was thinking about the future, what goals I have, once I have overcome my current situation. It seems far away, but reachable.
I feel I am getting sad, but not panicing. It is ok I guess.
