For past couple day I did something really stupid. This cocky college prick that was a co worker, was bidding me around treat me like an idiot. I did other to help him to move stuff out of the gym. But he wanted me to do a later. The issue was that my boss told that could go home earlier ( it was my last in the building before moving to a different building.) also he want to make this older guy do it, however in his 60’s.
10 Minutes later, I said well I can do it now then get the rest my work done. But he still said no and all these jocky cunts give me a stupid look.
I was fucking pissed, I had to chill in my room to calm myself down. So I did the rest my work and double my boss about situations. He told not to worry about it. In addition, I left acouple sarcastic notes. One then to remind to get the stuff in the gym.
My sister told call my boss back, I did do a drawing of a poop majo and it said “Shit Happen”. But I think my boss well manger took it down, cuase I told him about. He was not mad and actually though it was funny.
But I’m nervous, cause I’m getting hire full time, but this kid has meltdown cause note I left him. He trying tell the higher up about and try to get me fired.
I left my fucking ego get to me, I should just walk away and been an adult. However, I fuck up as usually so miss a chance of life time. I’m not smart and I don’t any mthing else to fall back. It’s could my relationship with my family and could be homeless.
I thought of murdering this kid, like running him over with my car or torched him to death, if he dares try to make me lose my job. I hate these feelings and thoughts. I hate that I’m fucking weak boy, that should just walk away.