Scared

From xenbria: im ab to get a whooping
n i have such a strong urge to like sh afterwords, i was ab to be a year clean in like 10 days ish but i relapsed 2 days ago. scared im gonna relapse again

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Hey Xenbria
Can I start by saying, wow a year is such a wonderful accomplishment, you should be so proud of yourself. You know its bloody hard to get to a milestone and be proud, be pleased, be wary, be nervous, be scared and then to relapse. I have read a lot of posts similar to yours since being here at Heartsupport.
I understand that there is this fear now of doing it again as its all so fresh but what I would love you to do is really focus on what has just happened, a year of nothing, probably something for a long time you never thought you could do but you did and then a couple hours of relapse! As huge as it feels right now try not to see this as a fail but as a moment of misjudgement, like making a wrong turn, now get back on the road you were on and keep on going. You are strong and amazing. Keep on walking that road. xx

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Hi Xenbria,

First of all, sorry I’m late at replying to this.

I think the first thing it’s worth mentioning is that already you’ve been brave in sharing your struggles with SH with us.

Setbacks happen all the time, but they 100% don’t define you, and relapses don’t erase the progress you’ve made. It would be a good idea to reach out to someone you trust or a mental health professional who can help you figure out where your thoughts are coming from, and give you healthy coping mechanisms to deal with them.

It’s so important to put yourself first, whilst remembering that you are not alone. Reflect on the coping mechanisms that helped you stay clean for almost a year, and focus on rebuilding from there.

I see your strength! I believe you can do it