I haven’t been at my best, as I’m mentally broken in the heart and mind.
I’ve been at this for 10 years, my depression comes back at me as an alter-ego, telling me that I’m better off dead tomorrow or, The Sooner The Better
I’ve lost friends through misunderstandings, my lovers through ridiculous predicaments, and I’ve been pushed away.
I’ve become distant soon after.
Suicidal thoughts were the main thing in mind, and I wish for nothing but to gather this pain and let it suffocate me.
I couldn’t bring myself to smile at times, it’s a brutal attempt to fake it 90% of the time.
My parents would shrug this off, one time saying that it’s all in your head
I was given a counselor to help with my current mental state but, it didn’t go well in high school.
My little brother would have similar days when, he’s withdrawn and alienated from everyone.
It was then, my brother introduced me to you, and little by little, you are saving me and him.
Each day, me and my brother would act like:
“Yo! Kitboga is live!”
“Yes! He’s streaming!”
Me and him would smile, laugh and cry.
I didn’t think I would feel this, to feel these emotions again.
I love and look up to you @Kitboga, I brought my brother your merch a few months back, and he cherishes and loves it!
Also, I wish you the best, always and forever.
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