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Belongs to: Therapist Reacts to KUJO BEAT DOWN by Ren
That last part telling folks to share what they haven’t been able to share before was very helpful, I hope I don’t share too much. I have been really struggling for a long time now. I struggle with my alcohol abuse, brought on by a traumatic event. Early 2016 I (27M at the time) was SA’d in my sleep by a very good friend (former friend now obviously) who also worked in HR at the company I had been with for just over 5 years at that point. When he SA’d me that broke me completely. I had a bit of rough start in life, and I had finally gotten a good accounting job, nice apartment, no debt, a good group of friends (who the guy who SA’d me introduced me to, so when the SA happened I lost most of my friends and support group.) I was broken after it happened and I started to drink (I didn’t drink too often before, but became a heavy drinker to forget). For the first two months after it happened I drank and didn’t do anything else (I stopped working out, I stopped hanging out with friends, all I did was drink. I would have gotten fired if I had not been with the company for about five years and had done consistent good work until that point (my work was still getting done, but I was quite late very often. A very clear attitude change). They knew something was wrong and I just kind of covered it up and said I was a bit depressed and I would be ok (I should have told them then, not the 4 years later when I finally did work up the courage to report him). I started to hide it better at work, but I ended up drinking all my money away and got evicted. I ended up living in my car for nine months. I knew I needed help, but I was so ashamed about what happened to me I couldn’t bring myself to ask anyone for help because I didn’t want to explain how I became homeless in the first place. It has been almost 9 years now, and I have been to therapy for it now, but it still brings me pain, but the real issue the alcohol abuse that stemmed from the trauma response that has been very difficult to stop (I do good for a few or two, but then I go on a long bender and start it all over again. Thanks for reading my inner demons rants. Hope y’all have a great day!