I don’t believe in myself and I have no support. I’ve been in horrible shape for years. I went to the concert last night and heard Tim mention this and I believe this is superior to complaining on Facebook.
I’m in a sad state of knowing I should be responsible and acting like an adult but I am in a seemingly neverending cycle of bad decisions, anger, resentments and my life is a mess. I’m not healthy, I barely have friends and I’m not sure how I’m surviving. I expect the world to “do it” for me…I expect the sky to s*** out some sort of favor.
I realize that if you want something, you’ll work for it…my problem is that I don’t want anything I want enough to work for it. I got money to get high and go to a concert but I don’t have a car, have to bum a ride and got barely any food in my cupboards. I’m about through asking myself why and I want to salvage what’s left of my miserable, pathetic existence and change into a better me. I have no clue how or where to start or how to let go of the past. I want to be happy. I want to enjoy a healthy life, with minimal bad habits and have people to be around on the holidays. I want what these other people all around me seem to have going on. I’ll gladly take any sort of feedback or direction.