I dont know what to do. I am trying but things dont help. I work I go to the gym, I play DnD I listen to music I like but still. Right now I am lying in bed. There are many reasons to feel something this evening. I could be excited for tomorrows DnD game. Or I could be happy that I received my paycheck today. I could feel worried about my future or I could be upset about all the bad shit that is happening around the world but no. I am just laying here numb and empty. Not sad, not happy, not angry, not upset, just empty, numb and a bit bored.
I tried to get some advice from the internet and most of what I got was advice like: “Go do the things you like.” “Listen to music.” “Drink a hot tea.” “Go and do some excercise.” “Be with your pet.” “Get some sleep.” atc. 1. I dont feel like doing the things I like because I am not capable of enjoying them right now. 2. I have been listening to music a lot lately. So much so that it has started to loose its appeal. 3. I have had a coffee and it was ok but it did not help. 4 I am literarly in pain from excercising yesterday in the gym. If i do any more i woulnt be able to move. 5. I am with my cat right now. It is nice but it does not help. 6. I am numb but not tired. It is a strange state when I dont feel like doing anything but I dont feel like sleeping either.
It is frustrating. I dont want to feel like this. Not even the pain from the excercise helps. It is just numbness. If anyone does know something that would help please respond. I would really appreciate it. Thanks.