You can actually hear the pain in his voice when he sings this
When you’ve been m*lested this somg rips something else in you. I still remember the first time i heard it I was 14 about a week later i jad my dirst attempt and i almost didmt make it the ambulance and hospital done a lot of hard work to save my life. You don’t know pain how those memories eat you. I’m 29 and i thought it would get better and i would get over it but i found the older i get the worse it gets and my anger and rage gets far far worse. And let me say this it was not my father and i had the best mother ever but let me tell of you who are parents or who will become parents trust nobody these demons are ready and they will get what they want. Don’t leave your kids with anyone and tell them no matter what they can tell you everything. Because the pain and suffering they will go through will be for life. And nobody cares and therapy doesn’t help because guess what if the therapist or dr isnt paid than they don’t care. i don’t know whats worse the daily flashbacks, the nighmares every night, or the anger that i know i will never get justice or how he is right down the road from me or how his stupid wife has a son and daughter and she was told by me and my cousin what he did to us and she just laughed.
Those of us that are heavy metal vocalists find our therapy in lyric writing. Sometimes it’s very dark and hopeless.
I wonder how his mother feels now, hearing the pain her son expressed in this song—pain she never acknowledged when it occurred.
I dont think she was prepaired for this song, its a very hard song to listen to and hurts😢
Jonathan Davis worked for a country morgue and this us a song about his worst experience
I had never heard this song before today. It makes me think of the pain I feel when I listen to otep jonestown tea and prison sex by tool, especially the video for prison sex because it feels like you’re watching someone be abused, or it does to me, it reminds me of that helpless feeling.
@heartsupport I found this video at a time where I honestly was not looking for it, but I was looking for healing. I am a victim of CSA by my families priest, a group of men at my parents country club, was gang raped and raped as an adult and I continued to stuff these emotions. I was 17 when this song came out and I would cry and cry and cry. Then when “Kill You” came out on LIP, everything came undone when I was 18. I destroyed my housing room up on Mackinac Island in 1996 and then in that December while living in Vail I finally said what had happened to me as a child out loud and I was told by my mom and brother it never happened. I stuffed it again, knowing they were lying. I spun out, relapsed, was a meth/heroin/crack addict and would stay clean (Once for 6.5yrs) but everytime these things came up, I knew it was true and it happened, but why would family lie to me? So I would relapse because I didn’t know and was so mentally messed. I have Bi-Polar 2, BPD, Severe PTSD and anxiety at 46. I went to therapy and switched to a psychiatrist. Then as I was in the midst of facing these demons, I found out my psychiatrist massively broke HIPPA by telling 4 people my story, using my name, my diagnosis, my meds and my trauma. I am now spiraling again, but I haven’t relapsed yet. I cannot stop crying, this pain feels like my soul is being torn daily, constantly and every day is tears and fear and anger. My husband is at a loss. I am in Senior Management and cry in my office all day. I tried to sing “Sharp Edges” by Linkin Park (I was a singer in an emo/core band 2000-2003) and I cannot make it through the first line. I am scared of myself. I don’t know what to do. I am working my 12 steps, but I am finding myself dabbling back into impulsive/dangerous behavior, very rough and violent sex and I am hurting. Any help? Please!
I can see who understands this exactly just by their reactions.
Feck I had forgotten how emotional this was, I remember when it first came about. I’m sat crying again.
When I was a kid and this came out, we didn’t have trigger warnings. We just dealt with it and moved on.
This…man mine said I was just lying to get attention and that’s all I was, a little attention seeking thorn in her side.
If this song don’t tear your heart out, you’re not a human. I just found this channel and i searched daddy i was like no way she did this video. Most people wouldn’t touch this song. GJ
Yeh, It happened… I still stay nonviolent with people
Those that have been in this similar situation are underestimated. I as well, we ain’t dumb. Easy to respond to… but live it. AND Keep going forward. Is that what it takes to be something???
Listen to Kill You by Korn. It’s another song about him being mistreated and physically abused by his stepmother. It’s fucked up!
The video of him making this track is devastating. I have just wanted to hug him for yrs after watching it.
This song saved me as I child, I suffered years of childhood rape from a family friend, and I felt so alone, dirty, in pain, and not knowing how to feel with the mix of emotions amd having no one to talk to, JD got my pain amd made me feel not alone in my suffering amd as a adult this song still helps . I told my mum who never believed me but JD understood.
I was abused as a child, I was never SAed but I was physically abused and when I heard the lines “mommy why your own child” I felt that in my bones.
This album man first was hype n so nuts by the end you felt different