I’ve been struggling with depression and anxiety since the my brother decided to take his own life 4 years ago.
This year has been the worse since on January I got diagnosed with severe anxiety and SAD, daily thoughts of not being good enough at anything, life’s not worth it, nobody is going to miss me if I kill myself, etc.
2 weeks ago I tried to kill myself because I felt it was my time to die, that there was nothing I could do to overcome my depression and anxiety. The pain was too much to bare. But thanks to my best friend I didn’t do it, I chose to give myself another chance because she made me realize that there’s people that still care about me and I don’t want to hurt them.
I went to terapy last Tuesday to help me heal but unfortunately yesterday I got fired from my job because the company went out of business, so now I have to put that on hold because my financial situation changed. No matter what I do life still finds a way to mess me even more mentally, I sometimes don’t know what to do or say to convince myself that there’s still hope for me.
Any encouraging words will be appreciated. Thank you.