Hey there!
First off I just want to say thank you for being open with us here, we appreciate it and don’t take it for granted.
Mental illness is so hard, adding on being so young, and having no support- I am so sorry you had to experience that.
Being young it is easy for adults to see mental illness as a kid being naughty or bad… but man that is not the case. I wish that more people were aware of the issues that can be apparent in children when they are young- that they are not just being bad kids. I wish there was more understanding for you at that time- you deserved to be understood and heard and cared for. I am sorry you did not get that from those people in your life at that time, that was not okay of them.
The abuse you went through- you did not deserve that, you should not have experienced that and I am so sorry that is something you went through. Doctors of any kind should be understanding and able to listen and care for the people they see… I am sorry you did not get that from these doctors when you were younger.
I can’t even begin to understand how hard it must be getting throug SA… that is something no one deserves, I am sorry taht is something you experienced… I think it is common and understandable to have difficulties talking about abuse and SA as a child or adult. It is understandable to be scared. I agree that children are not listened to enough, I am hoping that change comes one day so kids do not have to go through this pain in the future…
Mental health is such a hard thing to deal with on your own, and it’s even harder when doctors or people you are close to- or should be close to- don’t listen or seem to care. That is something no one deserves. You deserve to be understood and listened to, and I am so sorry you were not given that.
I wish it was easier for people on the outside of situations to see what has caused certain emotion or instances.
When I was a teenager dealing with depression and anxiety my mom and dad did not get it at all- they thought it was so simple to get over… now my mom has been through much and she is aware of how I felt back then. I wish she would have been more understanding then, but I am glad to be understood today.
You did not deserve to go through these things, you did not deserve to be hurt, and I am so sorry you went through these things. Please know you are not alone, there are people who will listen, and people who care. You are loved, and you deserve to be heard and listened to. I hope that you can find peace in life, I know how hard it is to get through the past.
We are always here for you, we are here to listen, to be a shoulder to lean on.
Much love my friend,
Lys