This post hit close to home for me.
You mentioned that you wish your existence had worth. It does. Sometimes our mind tells us that we are worthless and hold no value because so many things feel overwhelming or difficult. Our mind, in our hurt and struggles tells us these lies and we believe it. But I can assure you friend that you hold value. You matter. Your life matters. Your feelings matter. What you are going through matters and you deserve to be heard. I say this a lot because so many of us need to be reminded of this, including myself.
Life is complicated. It surely can be sometimes, anyway. You know what? We are all flawed. Every single one of us. You are not alone and it does not mean you are defective or broken. Our society today often makes people feel like something is wrong with them if they don’t follow a certain standard or mold. But it isn’t true.
We all go through life at a different pace and in our own way. That is completely okay.
My entire upbringing I felt like I was broken. Like something was wrong with me. My family made me believe that I was just difficult and problematic. They faulted me for a lot of what I faced. Then as an adult I was diagnosed with many things that explained my entire childhood and adult life to that point.
Sometimes having a therapist and a psychiatrist to talk over what you are going through are such a huge help because they can listen. Without judgement. They can help direct and guide you. Give you the tools and resources to help overcome some of the struggles and thoughts you face. And help give medications to balance it all out. They can diagnose you properly and help you apply the proper treatments and routine in your life so that you can live at you best.
Do you see or talk to anyone?
Friend, you are a human being with feelings and emotions like any other person and that is okay. You’re allowed to have struggles. There is light in all of this darkness that you feel. Sometimes it just takes taking advantage of the proper resources to help guide you through how you are feeling.
You are deserving of love. From others and yourself. You deserve to be heard.
I’m going to leave you with some links okay?
Our master list of situations that you may relate to, followed with activities to help you. Master list
There is a 7 day FREE trial that you can take advantage of for online counseling. I have used this and I really appreciated it. BetterHelp Some OG our Heart Support staff use this regularly as well and serves them well. Even if all you use is the 7 day trial, it can be a great resources to have.
Discord If you aren’t already, you’re welcome to join the community on discord. To talk and hang out. Be a part of us. Whether in general chat for casual conversation or in #realtalk which is used similarly to the wall here. There is also a discord for DanMakesHisMark where you can find free coloring pages to download and color. Many of us have been contributing line art for people to color during quarantine and sharing. Some of us just color and share what we colored. Others draw and share. You are welcome to join us in that. No matter whether you’re good or not at it. The point is we do something together.
Friend I hope you get feeling better. We care about you.