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Belongs to: Therapist Reacts to Dear Alcohol by Dax
this song hits me in the feels everytime. i relate to this song so bad. i feel im never enough. i have tried my hardest and it feels like i got fire in my veins and everytime i try it just shuts me down so i just start drinking agasin to forget. but the hurt i got is deep so i cant forget . i wish i could. sorry if im rambeling
I understand when a song relates to your personal life. There are days I wanted to give up in my life. That’s why I started to drink but it lead to me feeling worse. Drinking does help me escape Last year, I got a wake up call from a song and my sister to get my life together. There are things that I distract myself from being depress like volunteering and hobbies. What are other things that you enjoy to do besides drinking?
You didn’t waste your time to ramble. I’m super proud of you being to express your feelings to me in HeartSupport. Just remember I’m always here to support you.
Good Afternoon my friend.
I know this is a slightly older comment here, but I wanted to reachout and spend a bit of time replying to you.
First of all, I appreciate your honesty. I appreciate how hard it is to maybe even right that post. You’re brave for facing down the things that plague you, even if you don’t feel it.
In your post, you mention the feeling that you’re never enough. And that it feels like fire in your veins, so you drink to forget. But it seems to never really work.
Im so sorry. And I dont say that with pity or to look down on you. I say that from a genuine place. I am sorry that you have to grapple with such a demon.
I imagine that feels lonely. Feeling like you’ll never earn the approval or love of others. Like it isnt meant for you. I imagine that leads to a “why try” sort of feeling. That every step you take just…doesnt lead anywhere.
That has to hurt. That has to hurt in a consuming and frustrating way. And Im so sorry.
I truly believe that, as people, we don’t come into this world with that feeling in us. Instead, the feeling is put there. For me - it was put there by my parents. Not intentionally - but they were wrapped up in their own stuff. Their own unresolved issues. And through their actions and inattentiveness, I developed a sense of “not good enough”.
So. That feeling grew. And i tried to drown it in all the worst ways. Mostly in people. And a lot of people got hurt.
I know the feeling of “not good enough” well.
Simultaneously, I’d like to think I made it out. Im not sure what happened, but at some point I felt I’d hit rock bottom. And that’s when I turned to therapy and reading and researching and practicing and trying all of the things that I thought were corny.
Im 32 and married now. Some days I get flareups of self comparison and sadness. Emptiness. But most days are good. Great even.
My friend, I believe those days are in the future for you. I wont sit here and say you need to do “x” or do “y” - but I want you to know Im rooting for you. Because like myself, you dont need to earn love. You are a human deserving of it. Intrinsically. Just by existing.
And you are good enough. As you are. Today.
I hope you’re well - i know this is an older post. Feel free to reach back out should you need us.