Brother.
Imma be 100 with you, no bullshit, trash all that. One thing you need to understand is that all people are in some way an impersonation of the devil, some more than most. Anyone tellin you you’re a monster ain’t shit, none of them are, none of us are. One, they excuse themselves of their own hate and they can’t tell me no human being on the face of this fucking earth doesn’t or hasn’t exerted some form of hate. FACT they are straight lying.
Without human beings, hate doesn’t exist. It’s all a part of us, and we’re gonna have to navigate with it sometimes. Don’t we hate that? Sure. Hate isn’t too far from love, it’s natural. Whoever is making you feel like shit in the Now for something then, brother forget they exist. I see all these idiots running against the biological grain of the human makeup telling people they against hate, you’ll never meet someone more full of shit than these people. You can hate love, you can hate hate, you can hate people, your lover, your parents, you can hate a group of people, you literally can hate anything. All of that is a broader part of a tree my dude. You want to know something else? Almost everyone gonna overlook a good deed but if you fuck up, they all look at you. They all look for the thing they want to get rid of, but the key is that they’ll have to rid themselves to accomplish whatever the fuck they’re on. Wasting yourself on the same people capable of what you’ve done, is a waste my brother. Anyone thinking they above you preaching anti-hate, is on some anti-self bullshit and I can cop that shit 100%. You can point me in a direction, and I’ll let them know it myself if you want.
So you learn, regardless, nobody will ever rid themselves of hate. You’re no more human than the people disgusted at you dude, they just don’t have reflection and the moment they saw themselves in an unaltered form they trying to jump out their own skin.
Aside from all that, I think about death too, who doesn’t. I got my own reasons why I been wanting to leave, but they deeper than a few words bro. You got a choice though, I won’t deny you that, but this is a lesson you can actually overcome and it’s only 1.
Hit me up or text me on my #, facebook, insta, discord, whatever. I got xbox, add PVRGVTXRY we can chill on some games or I got steam. I’m High Risk too bro, I straight walked out of a High Risk Suicide Prevention session, been to a hospital and told them 8 days straight there isn’t shit they could do to stop me when it comes. Your case probably isn’t that bad bro, just hit me up, I got a bag of dark humor, nightmares, positivity, wisdom, but mostly I’m a pessimist of some strength.
See you soon.