Due my abuse grandmother being in hospital and my mother stress out. My home is being to much to live in. My parents are mental abuse to each other and being around that energy is too much.
My sister suggested that I need to find a studio to escape from all the madness. I miss being in a band where I could go my jam space and just play guitar in my own space. But I have no to jam with, people don’t want to jam with me.
I have my solo project, that no want to be part, it suck I wish people hears my song that work hard for. And miss being in a band with people, except the drama and being use by others.
I’m don’t snap at people, let my ego , pain and shadow take over where I’m mental case. Dealing family put me in a dark place. I been doing meditation, DBT skills and exercise. But my ego is anger about everything.