I feel like I’m losing my best friend, I miss him. I don’t think we had a problem, but I miss having him to talk to. I feel very alone.
It sucks so bad to feel like you had this level of closeness with someone, that you would share anything with them, that your lives were intertwined, and now, all of a sudden it feels, you find yourself completely separated, as if you were never that close anyways…it feels so strange to be distant from someone you never imagined losing. It leaves a hole that you feel is impossible to fill. And it is a brutal loneliness to experience.
I have had something similar happen over the past two years – I had two best friends that I felt were closer than brothers, and slowly, over time, things have faded, and there are times were we feel unfamiliar – as if we are just acquaintances on social media. I get my news about their life secondhand, after or at the same time as everyone else. I miss them. I feel that ache.
I’m sorry you’re going through that friend. You are not alone in that pain.