Hey there, I doubt anyone would notice but I wrote a status here a few months back in February. At that time I recently had a mental breakdown that really made me recosidering to commit suicde, but I was too scared and ended up seeking mental shelter more and more in my sleep and dreams. Then I had a dream that gave me some hope for the future, that might seem like I’m stupidly grasping for straws, but I really thought that I had a chance of getting better. For a while I thought I a doing well, I tried to stay positive in this faculty that I really don’t have passion to.
But slowly the spell seems to be fading away, and I found myself in the dark again. With my grades not improving too its really getting into me.
I found myself staring at my wrist, pills on my table, and I even wrote a few drafts of suicide notes on my sketch books. I tried distract myself with my art, my hobby, but it feels really heavy to do so.
I’m sorry that my words are jumbled up
I can’t think too straight, I just want to shut off and fade away