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When I was at my lowest, I begged my wife to leave me because I didn’t feel deserving of such an amazing woman but ultimately don’t feel deserving of love. I feel that I’m a ghost watching my life from the outside. I just want to live and be happy, not stuck in this rut of every single day being the same. My wife is an angel, in 30 years has never raised her voice to me, has never taken my bait to fight with me so I could push her away.
Hello,
Thank you for reaching out to Heart Support.
It sounds like you have a pretty amazing wife. Just from what you wrote I can tell she really loves you! & you love her. & for better or worse she’ll be there for you. It’s hard feeling disassociated w/ life.
Have you tried to talk to someone about this?
Speaking to a complete stranger… A therapist… Helped me overcome feeling like I am watching my life through like a 3rd person POV. There’s some suppressed emotions & things I have had bottled up for so long that has made me feel the same disconnect you feel.
You got to be kind to yourself.
Please take care of yourself.<3