Someone suggested this site for my mental health so here I go:
I don’t think I can carry on anymore. I’ve got probably the most important exams in my life in front of me and no one to help me with them. So I’m worried and stressed about them.
But even then, I’m not sure what to do after them and im generally scared of the future and of my status quo changing (however shitty it is).
In addition to that my parents aren’t supportive because we’re from Eastern Europe and we just “suck up” every problem we have.
I don’t have any real “friends” I can talk about this neither. Don’t get me wrong, I have some buddies that I play video games with and generally have fun but they aren’t people that are here for me in situation like these.
And finally, recently my boyfriend cheated on me and dumped me, taking away the only thing that made me happy, the only thing I loved.
Even posting this here is stressful as I never said the truth about how I feel to pretty much anyone.
So here I am, totally lost and scared, while also just functioning on pure hate and spite (+ an unhealthy dose of alcohol and anti-depressants) and idk what to do anymore. I’m too much of a pussy to actually end it all once for all but living is just constant pain for me. I would love to just curl up in a ball and stop existing.
So yeah, that’s my state as of right now, sorry for the rambling.