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From j.t_89: The biggest reason is probably because I’ve never had any support my entire life. Food and a roof, but not much else. That’s kinda where music became the biggest part of my life mixed with video games. Bullying became physical in high school so I dropped out and pretty much isolated myself from the outside world and slipped into my safe space of music, gaming and smoking. I’ve never really made any friends after everyone from high school went their separate ways. Everyone who’s came into my life wanted money or help with something I could do well like fix their car. So I never really had that group of friends to just hang out with and enjoy social activities with. All of my hobbies I do alone and I find myself getting burned out quickly. My one desire to have a band with great people and a good network with musicians has been such a letdown I have little inspiration to pick up any of my instruments just to practice. I had very high hopes a few months ago that things were finally turning around just to get ghosted for no reason. So you get left with that feeling of “what did I do?” “Did I say something?” “Was I not good enough?” So I kinda get in this “why do I even bother?” mindset. Why should I bother learning music I’ll never even play? Why should I bother putting my efforts out to make friends, be sociable, get out and experience life when everyone I have met so far has let me down? It’s so much easier to self isolate and try to medicate my state of mind where I feel fine in isolation. I’m hoping this years ohio is for lovers will help me get inspired and give me some hope to not give up on what I really want in life.