It always amazes me to see people without trauma react to a raw moment from those of us who do. They only get a window. We get a life sentence.
Early 90s, this was the only song thay disturbed me. I wekt through abuse, not sexual, mental and physical. But shit like this makes me angry.
This song or band is probably why I’m still alive…
I doubt you or anyone will even see this, but it’s cathartic. I was raped at 7-9 by my best friend/baby sitters grandson/ neighbors grandson. I could go on about my downfalls, but we’d be here all damn day. I ALWAYS cry at this song, but when you said you wished you could give him a hug, it really broke me, it has been 18 years since I have had a real hug from anyone. Made me realize how pathetic and broken I truly am. The worst part is, there’s not a single person that cares… Hope all is great on your end. Also new to the channel, 2nd video in
Love jd he’s the most emotional singer I’ve ever known
My hats off to Ross fucking Robinson.
This song is therapy for me. Knowing that im not alone. Im 46 and still waking up in nightmares. Too everyone you are not alone.
Heed my words struggeler . . …
You don’t even know that this song as well as all of Korns music got me through my first 30 years without unaliving myself.
Edit: this is a one take song. This was real- every year and sob. People think the death penalty for this crime is sufficient but there is no punishment to fit the crime here. We suffer inside forever and talking about it is like reliving it every time- unless you can completely detach yourself from it.
Edit2: when I heard it the first time I was really upset for Jonathan because I never wanted anyone to feel like I did. I had wished that it was just me.
As Someone Who Was Assaulted Many Times At The Age Of 5/6 By My Male Cousin This Song Hits Me Like A Brick. I’m Glad He Made This Song To Recognize Male Sexual Assault/Rape/Abuse. Also I Was So Young When My Cousin Did It That I Didn’t Understand What He Was Doing, So I Didn’t Say Anything To Anyone Because I Thought He Was Just Playing With Me, Or Trying To Bond With Me. Now As A 11 Year Old I Deeply Think About It. Although I Have Bad Memory To Remember My Experiences Fully I Still Blame Myself For Being A Child, And Not Understanding, And Letting It Go On For A Year. This Day Still He Looks At Me Weirdly, And When I Last Went To My Grandma’s House (Where He Lives) He Kept Touching On Me, And Acting Weird. My Dad Confronted Him About It, But He (My Cousin) Said He Didn’t, And That I Was Lying, Also My Grandma Said He Would Never Do It. He’s About 17/18 Now I Think, And He’s Trying To Mess With An 11 Year Old.
Some people are trying to make pedophilia a sexual preference…it’s disgusting. They say “it’s not something they choose” but it is…everything you do is your choice. No one is making you do these things but you and to say “it’s not something I choose” shows a lack of empathy towards the victims because they don’t get to choose. Like, you lack self control, you don’t try to get help and you refuse to stop. That’s a choice.
New to your channel. I’ve been a Korn fan since 1995… I love the guitars being a guitar guy playing since 1998 and into Nu-metal. Always searching for that tone when I was in my 20’s. This song is bad to the bone musically but what happened the J was god awful. I don’t how they were about to record this song in the studio frankly. Big props to J for releasing this back then. I can see why they don’t play this song live too often over the years. I think I was lucky when I had baby sitters when I was very young that didn’t happen to me. When your very young, its just damages you for ever. It’s so painful and I cry every time I hear the song. I think this might the 5th to 6th time I’ve heard. this song since 1995. Drying my eyes now…
the mommy who was watching was his step mom . his real mom died when he was a baby and the recording of the singing women in the end of the song is his real mom singing a lullaby, she recorded for him! the producer ross added it without telling him to make him more emotional…
I revisted Korn music in college. Found this album and listened to it non stop. One night, i had a very vivid and unpleasant dream of my father, whom i havent seen or talked to in almost 25 years. That album helped me release some of my pint up anger i had harboured toward him. Music is truly healing.
Aside the theme of song and all, it just surprises me how can anyone dance to this, if you know what it is about? Just listen
If I remember right Johnathan has only been able to preform this song live twice because it just brings up too many horrible memories for him
I think it’s really fucking sad how often sexual assault happens to children. I listen to a lot of metal and rock and the amount of musicians and people in general in the scene have been assaulted in general is insane. They’re often such kind people but so many of them have been through absolute hell. I already liked the alternative lifestyle (I relate most to the grunge subculture) but myself being assaulted made me lean into it even more because metal and rock actually talks about these things
This song made me feel myself helpless. I wanna hug Jonathan
Poor Jonathan he went through so much
Jon was not the only one crying during this. Everyone there was. If you listen closely before the woman starts singing towards the end, you can hear Head crying too.