Therapist anaylzes the lyrics of Let You Down by NF to talk about how difficult it is to feel like you have let yourself down and that often when we feel that way it’s human nature to push others away or shut down, but the truth is in those moments we need to let others down into our pain with us.
NF being the old man, as revealed in the final seconds of the video is showing that this song is ALL about NF’s old self (ie. younger NF). Elderly NF is allowing his old self to die. If you are are believer or not, dying to one’s old self is a core tenet of growth in Christianity. Elderly NF is a father to his old younger self that still resides in his mind (or flesh), it follows him around. In a way we all are the parent over our past, our past habits and thoughts all started with us, and can stay with us. Nathan as a fellow Christian HAS to take up his cross daily, to put to death his OLD self in order to continue to become his NEW self. NF, like many of us is not proud of his past—he has to “let” his old self/flesh “down” into its grave.
Colossians 3:5-11:
“Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. Because of these, the wrath of God is coming.You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator.”
About mental health; my xp: to anyone who’s ever been a victim of violence because of their appearance, gender, orientation, race : DO NOT ever let a hateful notion ‘there’s something wrong with me’ sink in. Trust me, it’s a recipe for self hatred and compulsive anxieties later on. When we suffer and we need a break, it’s only natural to think: ‘maybe if I was as everyone else’ I would be accepted. No, haters will always find something else to prey upon. I’ve always had kinda androgynous look, which was a fuel for bullies when I was growing up. I embraced it, used it to my advantage in my acting / modeling career, I was almost the face of Leon in these new Resident Evil games
I’m not saying much as right now it just hurts. I’m un-medicated and have been for the past few weeks waiting on PA’s to go through as I move from Trintellix back to Viibryd since Trintellix caused too much nausea. My depression and SI/HI has gotten worse overall, which sucks because I’m also between therapist since mine moved out of state and then the hurricane came through so they were out of work the past week.
I lost my dad due to suicide at the age of 8 (I’m 29 now but it’s still not a bit easier). My mom and I’s relationship is extremely distanced because she and my stepfather kicked my wife and I out of their spare trailer we lived in…that hurt a lot. I’m thankfully loved and accepted FULLY by my wife’s family and live with her paternal grandparents, and her mom is willing and happy to be a mother role for me since I’m lacking that.
I’m wanting to volunteer but with everything I have going on mentally and neurologically with my Epilepsy, I’m worried I won’t be able to be much help to others. I’m definitely open to suggestions, though!
Hey @heartsupport, I’ve been to many places and seen a lot of things. As an almost blind INFJ Sigma, I’ve used music and its reflective aspects. Many people never listen, only hear. We often limit ourselves based on others. The song I heard recently felt really necessary to me. Sometimes we don’t know why we go through certain things, and the choices we make also affect others. But then, people break free from their limitations, chains, and barriers, ascending to new levels. It raises more questions than answers.
This song hits home to me as recently I had to forgive my younger self for letting me down and realised that I couldn’t control what was happening or what other people were doing to me at the time but once you realise that you need to focus on yourself then do the 4 self care stages LoveRespectTrustCare for yourself
Ok. Now we need to let you hear songs from Cyberpunk. Yes, a video game. No, its not “just a video game”. The soundtracks to it are absolute phenomenal works of art.
Start with:
“Let you down (Ending theme)” by Dawid Podsaidlo
“I really wanna Stay at Your House (Official)” by Rosa Walton
“Phantom Liberty (Official)” - by Dawid Podsaidlo and P.T. Adamczyk
“Never Fade Away (Official)” - by P.T. Adamczyk and Olga Jankowska
Having watched “Cyberpunk Edgerunners” on Netflix before listening will make these impact even harder…
Two fold meaning. Lyrics are clearly about his father. Video shows an older version of himself. I think you can interpret either, but I side more clearly about his father
I’m definitely open to suggestions, though!